You will never truly be happy until you love yourself.
I hate myself.
As a person I really do not like myself. I don't like how I get so grumpy so easily, I don't like the way I make myself anxious about literally anything! I don't like how I force myself to worry about everything even though there is literally nothing to worry about, I don't like the way I cannot just enjoy the moment...I have to find something wrong with it. No, I do not like myself.
I do not like how I fail so easily, how I give up, how I do not try, how my common sense seems to be non existent and I make silly mistakes that any normal person could have swerved sideways around. No, I do not like myself.
I do not like my thoughts. I do not like how they control my life and my mind, I do not like how I compare myself to so many other people and make myself seem not good enough to have a place among them. I do not like how I always tell myself there must be more, THERE MUST BE MORE! I need something new, I need to create something else for myself, when really I don't.
So yes, I do not like myself. But for me, I know that to be truly content with my life I must start loving myself, turn that hate into something positive and thrilling! I must start loving every single thing I have, whether it be a duvet cover or a necklace, everything that I take for granted I must start loving.
I was made ME for a reason. Yes, I have issues, but they are MY issues. I have created them and therefore I must do everything I can to try and defeat them. No matter how hard anyone else tries, they cannot take them away from me. They are MINE to defeat...and when the time comes, defeat them I shall.
People love me, yes that is extremely big headed, but be big headed I want to see you loving yourself for you! If other people can love the person that I am, whether I'm at my worst or my best, then I can learn to love myself.
My finishing quote is taken from the one and only Kanye West:
"Everything I'm not, made me everything I am."
Happy reading!
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